living in the shadows

KOPA ♥

2012-02-11T20:04:00.000-08:00

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time
To lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
Then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain
Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
On their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time...on my
Own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
On their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain
Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one.............................

what ?

2012-01-28T22:04:00.000-08:00

compared!!!!

2011-12-14T20:38:00.002-08:00

why do people fucking compare!!!!??????

oh your hair is longer than mine,
your studying more than me,
her skin is better then mine,
look..she's studying more than you,
why are you not obedient like your sister,
look your sister is nicer than you,
he loves her more than me,
am i fat or she?
why can't you be like her?
don't wear makeup that makes you look like a whore,
don't wear heels that makes you look older than her,
she does not cuss like you,
why can't you keep your mouth to yourself like her,
don't act smart like her,
you are so annoying than her,
i love her more than you,
why can't you be more like her,
quit shouting like an annoying bitch,
don't sit like a whore,
do this do that like a proper girl,
act like your mom,
greet your elders with respect like your sister,
don't waste your time on the internet like a loser,
think positive like me,
..................................................
nak nak nak nak nak nak nak nak nak nak all the fucking time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALONEANDCOLD

2011-12-14T20:38:00.001-08:00

I set out alone,
Crawl through the tunnel,
My eyes can hardly see the other side,
No longer cold,
Or feeling in trouble,
I realize that I am just alive....
So let it shine,

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world,
We are the light in the tunnel,
That's all.....

Moving so slow, towards the end of the tunnel
I don't pretend I'll see the other side
I trudge through the mud
I push through the rubble
To realize that I am just alive
So let it shine

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel

The world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
But we will be leaving this world
Yeah, the world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
Do we believe in this world?

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....

uuuuggggghhhhh!!!

2011-10-07T20:45:00.000-07:00

......because of my yesterday's thought of the day..i totally made a fool outta myself
god knows what happened yeSterday!!!!
i was going with the flow of just being myself and not caring bout what these people think of me when i landed on my ass in ----* with my mates drunk dialling unknown people....n headbanging with a tree in the jungle...lol!!! yesterday was caaaarrrAAazzyy!!!!!!!!!!!

*ristricted

ummm um ummmmmmmmmm ummmmmmmmmmmmm

2011-10-06T19:22:00.000-07:00

some people live just to please others...
well ive learnt something and dat is don't ever give a rat's asss wat odas think of yuuu .....someday eventually were all gonna die n we ain't going tu heaven nor hell....
we'll just disappear into thin air sow it's pointless always worrying wat odas think of yu...WEAR WHAT YU LOVE,,EAT WHATEVER CRAP YU FEEL LIKE EATING,,ACT HOW MUCH-EVER CRAZY YU WANNA ACT, LIVE LIFE JUST THE WAY YU WANNA LIVE........................

the end ~~~~

WTFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooohooooo

2011-01-31T21:17:00.000-08:00

You almost always pick the best time,
to drop the worst lines.
You almost made me cry again this time.
Another false alarm,
red flashing lights.
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die.
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry.
I buried myself alive on the inside,
so I could shut you out,
and let you go away for a long time. GET OUT!
I guess it's ok I puked the day away.
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back,
you're gonna have to ask.
I think the chain broke away,
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine.
But it was worth the night,
I caught an early flight and I made it home.
I guess its ok I puked the day away
I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that...
With my foot on your neck
I finally have you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you
I guess its ok I puked the day away
I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that,(I guess its ok I puked the day away)
Nicer than that (I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way)
Yeah, and if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Nicer!!
Nicer!!

;/ wtF!!

Hear me....

2010-08-24T08:50:00.001-07:00

dont leave me here,wanting yu more..striving for ur touch,hungry for ur love,begging for ur kiss. Its easy to walk away,yu just count ur steps and make way to another random human bt it is never easy to erase the memories that we shared..for 17 months iv bin waking up evrymonin happi to be the 1lucky grl u loved,bt nw m startin to wonder if the word 'love' suits to be placed next to me coz afta the hurt,deciev,brok3n promises..the word LIE is the perfect sylable for it i guess..never 1nce,nevr evr hav i told u dt i did nt love yu bt the same sentence has bin plunged into my ears about a hundred times from u,this mayb easy for u as u r a boi wid no emotions wat so eva to just walk away n neva lukyn bck bt 4 once,cudnt u hav thot bou me n done wts gud 4me...dint it ocur to yu dt i wud fl pathetic n lose my studies..u say dat dis is wat u wantd bt u hv jus bin selfish enough to think of only ur desires ..wat bou me ??where ismy happi endin m badly hurt n i wel i just cnt thnk straight nemore wel hpe ur hapi coz u got wt u wanted,cngrts u won...uv oficialy made me cry,uv oficialy hurt me n uv oficialy taken my heart n fed it to the dogs...gudbie

Just a thot

2010-08-15T17:25:00.001-07:00

"To keep a relationship intact,one must make an effort and that effort must come from both the partners."
i try so hard,i give my best,i TRY my best to keep whatever we have alive n yet i feel lyk u jus dnt mke any effort at all...i'd do nethng for u to kip u smiling bt al u do is mk me unhappy sad lonely n depressd,u mk me thnk alot,abou dis thng dis relationshp,i cnt handle it on my own,i nid ur help,i nid ur hand tu catch me wen i fall bt lately al iv bin doing is falling on my knees n hurting myslf coz ur neva der...ur neva eva der at dat crucial time wen i nid u da most,i mean isnt boifrnds supposd to tk cre of their grl,gv dm their love mk dm smile,bt wat u r duing is xactly de opposite...in de end ur gona brk my heart n m waiting for dat moment patiently...

"SUBLIME"

2010-07-11T19:25:00.001-07:00

Its just so hard to please people especialy those who are egoistic and arrogant but u cant fall out of love. The whole sense of aoura,the love vibes you get from them is unexplainable. Suddenly your world is filled with cherry blossoms, when i fell in love with you i felt happiness and smiles all over me. These vibes were never a part of me before you walked into my life. You dont understand,you make me want to be a better person,you make me smile all the time even when there is no reason to smile at. You not only fill my emptiness with butterflies but you also fill the pessimistic part of me with ur scent of love....i love you my love and i will alwaes do.

Vulnerable

2010-05-27T07:37:00.001-07:00

hw cud i b wd a person hu wud rather see me get hurt n rather see me cry ..,..hearts r broken but da condition of my heart well it has bin shattered into uncountable pieces...m vulnerable,m torn n i kip holding on where ders nothing left to hold on to..i just gota learn to let go,,,,,,,!

happy?

2010-05-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders

I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
Oh, this pressured center rising
My life overturned
Unfair the despair
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set; all darkens

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path-way to contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Are you
HAPPY?

Are you
HAPPY?

Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release??
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing

imissyu!!!!

2010-05-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

imuimuimuimuimu.........imissyuuuuu

sumtyms evn angels get hurt n make mistakes!

2010-04-18T03:52:00.000-07:00

she ryts; y doz he hav 2b so dam mean,he promisd her dat he wudnt change but she was jus a dumbass 2blv in hm,nw shes cot up,she cnt escape fm dis mess..
few months bck she hd alredy gvn up hope bt she got cot in hs unrequited lov once again..shes lonely,shes crying,shes stupid n shes thnking of dieing!

inside meee

2010-01-07T21:13:00.000-08:00

inside me is a happy girl dieing tu come out but i usually SHUT her up by cutting my wrists !!!!!!!!!

sad bunny

2010-01-06T03:09:00.000-08:00

i feel lyk a hippie...i dont comb my hair,i eat gang,get high al da tym..omFg wats happenin tu me huh...wel da pain is stil der bt wat else can i do ryt..newaes m off nw so long...

tking tym wid a wounded hand

2009-12-31T07:52:00.000-08:00

aaahh bored tu death,irritated as hell,its 9;30 pm, n dis new yr. thing is shit boring....i just want tu die,i hate my life,i hate everything around me...ppl r reali mean,i jus wana freakin die ...i dont hv ne1 hum i cud cry tu or talk tu,as daes passes m gettin mor n mor depressed..m pissed offf wid everythinh,i even curse at dogs,i think m going insane,i hate being me..i havent gon out for daes ,,just stuck hea lyk a prisoner,...i cnt b fcking stuck wid his thots forever,i gotta muv on,but how...........it's killing me,the pain..it just keeps haunting me,i feel miserable,n i sulk al da tym,iv lost appetite,i lack sleep,m practically lyk a walking zombie..

so numb..godamnit it feels so fckin numb )= brk up's r neva easy....

wish my new yr. was wid yu !!

2009-12-31T05:05:00.000-08:00

i miss yu i miss yu i miss yu )c; ...i miss prasanta,,,,.....

even afta al dat shit i stil love yu n alwaes wil

i love yu ...<33fo'eva

woah..

2009-12-25T08:43:00.000-08:00

tudae my dae was fine..went tu church,prayed fo hours...n den da real fun started in de eveinin wen i witnessed two drunks..lukyn at me wid a weird xpression n i too kpt lykyn ad dem,den da real deal happend dey instantly started making out ryt in front of me..on da road,i was dazed coz lyk whr i liv its realy hard tu fynd sunthing lyk dat takin place in public dat also two guys..i felt grossed lykyn at deir tongue swinging frm side tu side n made my way out of da crowd,..

to be continued...feelin groggy..gd9t

me!

2009-12-23T09:34:00.000-08:00

my life seems pretty skeptical l8ly...i feel bored al da tym n i cnt concentrate on nething especialy my studies wch shud b my no.1 priority at dis stage coz il b gvin my icse nxt yr.

aaah wt is happenin..is it just me or is da whol world vomiting my sorrows..

=(